The Heart is Deceitful Above All Things

4:19am as I begin this post thanks to yet another early wakening thanks to the oh so familiar jaw pain. Anyway off that shit...

I've been reading a fascinating yet extremely disturbing true life book called 'The Heart is Deceitful Above All Things' by J.T. Leroy...it is a book that must be read to comprehend the horror of this story and journey.



As I sit here smoking some quality dope, I'm finally allowed some respite from severe pain...it's now just an ever present throb. Maybe Valium will help relax me too!

I have to meet up with my ex-man later today for us to return each others belonging. Originally he was being a horrid bastard the past few weeks but yesterday surprised me by not demanding all the gifts back as he was doing recently.

I hope it all goes well and I shall relate what happened here later on.

With Love and Light and lots of 11:11's to you all :)

Eleven Eleven -

All better! With a fresh 8mg worth of Buprenorphine inhabiting my receptors, my sense of well being is at optimum levels. It's all perfect...except I need a cigarette and I got none! Think I may turn to nicotine lozenges for awhile as cigarettes are becoming ridiculously expensive. Thank you Australian Govt, for taxing cigarettes to an extraordinarily ridiculous level. They must really care about us!!! Or is it the money?

What to do for the rest of my day off work?

Oh and right now I just glanced at the clock and of course it reads 11:11 am. Another 11:11 time prompt...

I see at least four 11:11's a day and not just on digital clocks. They are appearing everywhere, from architecture to mobile phone!! Please do let me know if you experience these time prompts yourself and share what the 11:11 visions mean to you personally.



I am truly beginning to believe that 11:11 time prompts are a wake up call to those who experience them. To wake us up and help us realize who we truly are. For we are all eternal and beautiful spiritual being, all connected yet all uniquely individual. We are the product of intelligent design. We are love.

I Am.

With Love and Light