Showing posts with label Work. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Work. Show all posts

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Post Valium Binge

After having consumed 30 of the 5mg Valium tabs over the past few days, today is the day I have ran out and am in the process of regaining my emotional state again.



I still feel very much affected by the 'Sweet, Refreshing' Valium and am still so calm in every possible way, which is not a bad thing at all for me.

Knowing my drugs (Yes I'm a Drug Geek!)I know what is currently affecting my is the metabolite Nordiazepam. This is what regular Diazepam (Valium) metabolizes to inside the body. I spend vast amounts of time investigating and researching every drug of interest, hell every possible thing that catches my attention I must research or k now the basics.

As you can obviously tell I'm fucking fascinated with pharmacology and how drugs work in the body...it's my niche! Experiment and document!

Back to how I feel...

A slight hint of apathy and a desire to take more tabs but thankfully I have no more left.

This is a visual of how I feel!



Surprisingly I've been active today, having just completed 4 hours of gardening and lawn mowing! I like this feeling. I am energized after the recent complete apathetic bliss I've so recently experienced!

Tomorrow I will be slightly edgy. I know this from past experience but I'm comforted by the fact I have a full day of work tomorrow, thus occupying my mind for 10 hours of the day! The fact that I have a love/hate relationship with Diazepam works in my favor as I now will not desire to be so out of it for quite awhile now!

Tomorrow...



End of post, hope you liked!

With Love and Light