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Finally, after such a lengthy time I finally relented and sought dental help and got my very aching tooth pulled. Fuck man, the relief I feel right now is amazing. Granted, the tooth still hurts but it is piss weak pain compared to the stabbing knife pains!
It was only after an essentially forced visit to ER by my mother that I went. At least I was given an Oxycodone script for 20 x 5mg tabs, fuck, better than a poke in the eye with a sharp stick! These pills helped in the few days it took to get into a dentist.
Now I'm on Augmentin Duo Forte (Amoxycillin/Clavulanic Acid) for the infection which decided to settle in two days after the painful tooth was pulled.
My garden is looking extremely well and I hope to have some new pics up very soon, although not many more varieties of flowers have emerged beside the Giganteum poppies.
I won't right much more for now as no mofo reads this shit anyway! If you do well god damn me and drop a line!
Fuck me it's been ages since last posting on this blog, what a slackass prick I am!
What an interesting and anticipation filled past two weeks it has been. My beautiful showy papaver giganteums have just hit flowering mode and a couple of pods are towering magnificently up to 6ft tall in the garden bed, my best over wintered poppy garden so far! Some pics:
Here's the first flower of the season...
This is a section of garden contains many different types of flowers...
Here is a poppy approximately one week prior to opening...
Here's a Drama Queen...what a delight by the way...
More pics will be posted as I get better shots and some different flower types. Feel free to check out my web albums, which will be updated constantly with new garden pics.
With Love and Light
Being bombarded with emails, sms's, phone calls and snail mail by my ex is really beginning to cramp my style.
I'm starting to feel extremely disturbed at his attempts to make me feel bad and ever calling me nasty, saying that I take pleasure in hurting people, especially him.
Poor misguided fool. As an INFP personality type according to repeated Myers-Briggs personality tests, I know his assumptions are dead wrong and thoroughly misguided. I avoid conflict like the plague and never set out to deliberately hurt another human being, especially one I have feelings for.
What my ex man failed to realize was that one cannot have a truly open relationship with a drug addict like me. I told him this repeatedly.
Right now I've swallowed 5 Valium and 5 Tramadol just for the sake of it as I'm very upset.
We have arranged to talk tomorrow in person to return each others belongings and I sure hope it goes well.
Wish me luck
With Love and Light
Approximately 5 years ago when I was 23, I got myself circumcised and this was the beginning of my downfall.
I was already a drug user, and at the time I was withdrawing from a Xanax addiction. After the operation I was given Oxycodone tablets...and I loved them and how they made me feel so damn good and pain free. I kept taking Oxycodone and when I ran out I began using large amounts of Codeine and over the years the amount I was taking grew considerably.
3 years later and very heavily addicted to opiates I am grossing 1000mg+ a day of Codeine. I could not control the urge to be high 24/7 and I was scared to death of withdrawal.
I had a pharmacy roster and had over 40 regular pharmacies I would travel to to acquire codeine tablets. It was when some of the pharmacists got suspicious and banned me from buying codeine that I went to the Drug Treatment centre and sought help in the form of Suboxone.
And to this day I am still on Suboxone. This technically I am still a junkie.
Got questions? Ask and I shall answer...
With Love and Light
Psilocybe mushrooms were on the menu for yesterdays breakfast.
17 raw and fresh shrooms so generously donated to myself from a caring friend.
Oh the fun I had! Complete dissolution of the torridness of life in ever so freshly fungal form!
I must point out that mushrooms in general are my most detested of foodstuff. Awfulness with a capital A...but knowing the pleasure that awaited me; I eagerly, although with extreme difficulty, swallowed every shroom chopped up and chased with water. No chewing involved!
Most of the realizations I experienced whilst entranced were nothing short of amazing. Intimately personal, I was shown a lot about the core of my being and as a result I am feeling so much more happy with who I am and why I am here. For the moment I will not share too much as I am still remembering, comprehending and considering what I was shown about myself.
I sincerely believe that magic mushrooms are a gift from our Creator God. I have never felt so close to Him and All That Is.
Rediscovering love is something I am strongly being persuaded by my inner spirit to hurry and achieve and I desire to love all. Also, regaining empathy and to strengthen my compassion for others were also major 'messages'
Consider it.
With Love and Light.
Smile like you mean it!
